hey ppl....how r u? its been a while eh? well that's nuttin new. neway i just got thru this "argument" (not rele) with cory--she thinx im 2 hard on myself! HEY! I just tell the facts straight! here are the things that r tru about me:

1. i need 2 lose weight (i weighed 96 lbs. 2day so im improving--don't worry i dont have an eating disorder!!)
2. no1 in my grade let alone in my school would ever think of going out with me unless the subject was brought up...n even THEN no1 would want to!
3. the guy that i like would never go out with me bcuz...well i dunno but i dont think he would
4. i need to get a flatter tummy--especially b4 i go shopping 4 a new bathing suit (me n a bunch of my friends r going shopping 4 bathing suits sumtime b4 summer or b4 school lets out)
5. i need to update my wardrobe--or at least some of it
6. i should probably update my cd collection soon, too...EXCEPT 1 of my friend is making a cd 4 me (legally) with a bunch of RELE good songs...im so excited!!!

so yea...those r the 6 main truth's that im willing to put out to the world.

   ANYWAY other than that life is pretty good! im gonna do 50 sit ups per nite, n on days that i go to the fitness centre i'll do 30 there 2, so on days i go 2 the fitness centre i'll be doing 80 sit ups those days so i'll get a flatter tum-tum quicker. plus im planning 2 eat healthier food--like no more A&W at lunch! OK...maybe once in a while....but neway...so yea life is pretty good :D. im so bored! there's nuttin 2 do! i hate it when its like this! so i guess i'll go! cya l8er!

~Hannah

((PS)) OMG im so excited! i mite be going 2 general assembly this June so it's possible i'll be seeing BeThAnY!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY! n if i dont i'm going over to PA in August neway...hopefully...so i'll c her then! im totally excited! NEWAY cya l8er!

hey! omg i (surprisingly) had a good time at youth! we went bowling (which, btw, im horrible at!) n me n simon had a competition 2 c who could get the most points. in the 1st game i won but in the second game he won  lol but yea its all good between us it happened so fast like i broke up with him n then like 2 days l8er we're like rele good friends u no? n thats a GOOD thing! lol cuz then its not like so awkward u no? so yea 2nite at youth cory WAS going 2 come but her cousin is leaving 2morrow so she wanted to hang out with her u no? n i have 2 understand but i was kinda upset but then i found out that jasmine, sara, n janey were coming so i didn't feel like such a loner! n then of course there's reuban n simon i thought was gonna be awkward but it wasn't!!! im so happy! n reuban is like super hyper n outgoing so u no lol well i g2g 2 bed no cya l8er!!

~Hannah

   As most of you (hopefully) know I moved away from West Chester, PA just a year ago (almost...on February 18th it'll be a full year since i arrived in Agassiz, BC. Everything's going great. I love it here! It's awesome! I've got close friends at school AND at church, i'm (exceptionally) on the popular side (ppl say im popular...ppl say sum crazy stuff in my book). My wardrobe's improved (i still need to go shopping 4 sum more pants tho...i need more jeans!), and im definetly happier at school.

   ...But... i rele miss my life outside of school back in West Chester. In school I was a complete and total loser. I was fat, I had glasses (until like Nov. of 2003--then i got contacts) n ppl made fun of me. I say HEY why the heck waste ur time on a stupid fat ugly me? But they did...stupid little...(no bad language)...But anyway! After school, during the weekends, and during the breaks (snow days, spring vaca, winter vaca, summer vaca etc...) life was awesome thanx 2 lize n bethany. I miss Meadowcroft Farm! I miss going 2 the pool with lize n hanging out in the woods n writing songs with Bethany. I miss making clubs and building forts and climbing trees with Bethany and hanging out at her house n during snow days sledding down the hills and drinking hot chocolate n getting ready for Christmas with Bethany...and sleeping over Lize's and Bethany's houses and birthday parties and Lize's one birthday party where we all put on clay masks and had a clay mask fight and when me, lize, n bethany each had a felt pillow that had something to do with something we liked (lize's was purple--her fave color--bethany's had ducks on it, and mine had monkies on it)... i miss bible study meetings...they were a blast when every1 came! n sunday school n youth group! I miss it all! I wish i could go back in time...maybe i'd cherish those moments more. Maybe i'd take more care of them before i left...maybe i'd have more of them...i miss lize n bethany n leah n lauren! i miss watching TLC n eating Ramen Noodles with Bethany n Leah.

   I remember one time when me n Beth were walking in the woods n we came to the clearing where there was this big hill with all these trees cut down and the old barn that our church was turning into our new church building was just a few yards away. We sat down and we started writing a song...which is now called The Artist (of my life). And then we just started talking about school and at the time Bethany was having some problems and stuff (this was in 6th grade...beth no's what im talking about...no1 else does) n we just talked 4 a few hours on the grass. It was a lot of fun. Then we went back to her place n hung out and ate Ramen Noodles n watched TLC n went online...the usual. But i don't think i'll ever 4get that. Maybe Beth will...but i won't. I didn't know i'd remember it so well...but i do.

   It's funny how some big things are forgotten, but those little things, like just hanging out, are remembered 4ever...or at least for a long time.

   Cory and Sally believe my family came here by fate. I think i know now one of the main reasons God sent my family and I here. To be for the de Vries's thru this horrible time. Cory and Sally at one point said that they wanted 2 live with us (they stayed with us 4 a week n a half while their dad was in the hospital) n once Cory said that we were her second family. And she said how my mom reminded her of her own mom. I wish this never happened.

   Once in a while i'll miss Meadowcroft Farm...like now. But i can't remember one of the main reason's why God placed us here. Why the heck is life so complicated???

~Hannah

   life sux...yup...that's pretty much the motto of my life...for the time being, neway. whats the point of life if we're all gonna die neway? whats the point of living? why don't we just all die now? that would save us a whole lot of time n even more pain.

   im fat. or at least i think i m. bridgid anne says im not--but i think i m. 2morrow's going to be my like...spa/work out/health day. im gonna give myself a facial, work my abs, only eat fruit n vegetables (with the exception of dinner in which i just happened to be preparing--im making pasta :D). n in my CosmoGIRL! magazine it has "20 ways of Loving Yourself"--so im planning to do a few of those. It also has this Spa section where you can make ur own spa type stuff...so that should be fun. N then in (its either my Seventeen magazine or my InTouch magazine) it has this thing where u go on this certain website (in which i 4get rite now) n print out an eating journal (where you list when, where, and what you ate. you also say how hungry you were, and why u were eating. for example:

date: january 17, 2005

time: 8:30 p.m.

what: some chips and some pop

why: mainly because of boredom--TV doesn't always keep you amused, you know!

circle one: craving hungry starving completely dying

(the ones in bold are my "hypothic" answers--rite now its 1:32 AM in the morning--dont ask what the heck im doin i can't sleep n i don't feel good)

SEE?? don't u think it'll b helpful? i do. neway...i better go 2 sleep...in order to stay healty you must sleep well and keep a balanced diet...and so far, im not doing so well with either! its a good thing i dont have skewl 2morrow! Pro-D day (whatever that is)! cya l8er!

~Hannah

P.S. Mrs. DeVries's funeral was yesterday...it was horribly sad...ugh!

   srry i haven't written 4 like EVER but so much has been happening...yea...so...here goes nuttin...

   Well...hm...where do i begin? ok...how about Christmas. WAIT i already told u about Christmas lolol so I'll start with Boxing Day...the day after Christmas. It was pretty fun umm i didn't have 2 go 2 church i was pretty happy about that cuz sumtimes u just dont wanna go n u like need a break u no? lol so yea n then the DeVries's came over for lunch which was pretty good we had this whole like mexican theme going on lol n then that nite i slept over Cory's house that was fun n then Paul was in town n he was stayin with P.J. so they came ova n then i slept over Cory's again (we watched like 7 movies in total lol) so yea i slept over Cory's on Sunday nite n Monday nite n then i went on on Tuesday cuz...uh....Mrs. DeVries's dad died Tuesday morning n they were set 2 go 2 Manning the next day...only that didn't rele work out. What im about 2 tell u is like the SADDEST thing that ever happened in my entire life!

   The DeVries's were on their way 2 Manning n they were so close n then they slipped on sum slush n the car went out of control (it possibly flipped) n ran straight into a tree....

....Mr. DeVries dislocated his shoulder n they had to reconstruct his hip...he'll be in bed and/or off his feet for possibly 6 weeks or more n in the hospital for possibly a month.

...Sally DeVries, their 15 year old daughter, possibly jumped out of the car b4 they hit the tree (Cory n I remember sally telling that 2 us but sally doesn't remember it at all). She didn't suffer from any broken bones but she's sore n beat up from the rolling n stuff.

...Cory DeVries, my best CANADIAN friend (or one of them at least) suffered from a huge gash right above her right eye. She got stitches and staples in her head. She'll have a scar but it won't be permanant.

...and Mrs. DeVries died instantly. The trauma occured in the back of her head, so it is thought that the car twisted her n then her head snapped back and hit the window, killing her instantly (so she didn't feel any pain)

Just thinking about it makes me want to burst into tears. Cory was in the hospital for about 2 days. Now she's staying at my house, as well as Sally. Her dad wanted the sisters to be together. And its hard, u no? Just, like, two nights ago i practically cried myself 2 sleep cuz Mrs. DeVries didnt HAVE to die! She didn't! And now my best friend and her sister and father are going thru hell on earth! this sux...this completely sux!

Please pray for the DeVries family. PLEASE!

~Hannah